So, after working a very good lunch (waitress!), I came home to a text message from Boyfriend that said "What's Up?" He's got to be kidding. So I called him. After the 5th call, he actually answered and pretty much had nothing to say for himself. Then when I told him that I can't do this anymore, he pulled his classic, "I just don't know what I want anymore." He always does this. I wonder if it is just an attempt to protect himself from feeling dumped or replaceable. Not really sure. Hmmm...
So he just kept saying "I don't know" to everything I asked, which I thought was completely disrespectful and showed a lack of balls, but I took some deep breaths. Finally I told him that perhaps he should take some time to figure out what he wants, but not to call me until he does have it figured out. I'm not gonna play house with someone who is deciding whether or not he even wants me in his life. I told him that he should think hard about what he wants, but until he makes that decision, I just can't be with him right now.
Honestly, I think a lot of this has to do with moving. I think he's scared shitless at the idea of having to leave the Cape. I think parts of him knows that it's the best thing he could do, but he has absolutely no confidence in himself and he does realize his own potential. The sad part is that I do see the potential in him.
Anyway, I guess I'm single at the moment, although not sure yet if it's a permanent or temporary situation. We shall see.
Taking a break from it all tomorrow and making a much needed visit to K-Nolan's house :)
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